Surrender your poverty and acknowledge your nothingness to the Lord. Whether you understand it or not, God loves you, is present in you, lives in you, dwells in you, calls you, saves you and offers you an understanding and compassion which are like nothing you have found in a book or heard in a sermon - Thomas Merton

Well I must now swallow my words, at least most of them. My company has finally done something very good for me. They've provided me with an opportunity that is not only one I think I will enjoy doing, it's also very "high-profile" in addition to being something I think I'll succeed at. I'm excited about the opportunity. When my now former boss originally told me about it I got in my head that the job would be slightly larger than it is, but it's still more than enough and the opportunities truly are endless. It's a job that will allow me to act like it's my own business and that is very attractive to me. I'm very grateful and hope that I can not only do well in this job, but help myself revamp the negative thoughts I ingrained into my own head about this place.

In other news I haven't talked to a guy who I consider a good friend in a while. Don't worry if you are reading this blog, you aren't that guy. Anyways it just makes me revist my single most important trait I seek in friendship, loyalty. As any of you who are friends with me know, if I am your friend I am your friend to the end and I will do anything I can to help you. It hurts when people you've really poured a lot of your life into and have poured their life into you as well just stop. It's a weird feeling and perhaps I'm a drama queen and need to "be a man" about the whole situation, but that's not really my style. I'm an over-thinking, over-processing kind of guy and that's ok.

Well that's all I feel like writing, if you are my friend, and reading this, and haven't called me in a while, and feel convicted by the above...well if you are my friend you are smart so I don't need to help you with the last step...I'm out....af