Well sixteen days from today I’ll be waking up single, and going to bed tired, and married. I’ve heard your wedding is one of the longest but best days of your life, I can only hope that the length merely extends the joy of the moments Natalie and I are sure to experience on our wedding day. It’ll be amazing to be surrounded by friends and family and have them all there for one reason, to celebrate our marriage. My hope is that our marriage may be a celebration of life, love, and a living witness of our beliefs. I long for the intimacy Natalie and I will share, and I dread the thought that there will be moments when there is a void in that intimacy due to arguments, disagreements or being stagnant. When Ed and Carol finally got together it was amazing to watch him insist that something always had to be going on or their relationship would grow boring, this was after they were dating a week. While Natalie and I are far from active every night, my hope is that we always remain active in showing our love, respect and friendship that we have for and with one another.

Since I referenced Ed and Carol earlier it’s impossible to continue without referencing last night’s episode first. Ed sitting on the bed, relaxed and calm, Carol hustling around the house worried about the million things she had to do in order to move to NYC. The conversation that the two of them had was nearly verbatim to many a conversation Natalie and I have had about several things. Then to watch them sacrifice part of their relationship, for the better of each person, it was awesome. Ed is great, best show on television week in and week out.

The Nuggets are sitting on 3-2 after Carmello/LeBron #1. The Nugs played well, started to falter at the end, but pulled things together, fought of the rally and did what they had to do to finish off the win. Basketball, and especially basketball with so many young players, is a great game to watch because everyone is very in the open. In baseball you can hide in the dugout or behind your cap; football, lacrosse and hockey provide the security of helmets to hide in, at the rodeo you can disappear into the chutes, but in basketball there is the open court, the minimal uniform and the open bench, allowing the fans and the world to watch these men as they struggle through victory & defeat, joy & agony under a microscope, gotta love it.

It’s time to being another day at work, just another day here. Little happens to provide much hope for anything greater within these walls. I think of projects that I could help on and how fired up I would be to help on them should they have come to be about a year ago, when I cared. At this point, I don’t know if I care. I think it’s somewhere inside me, I still have the desire to care, but when the rubber meets the road, I am just not that fired up about helping an organization that does little to help itself. I could go on for a page about things that bug me about it, but that’s unnecessary.

I’m getting married, two weeks and two days from 4:30 this afternoon. I can’t wait!

Hopefully Jim Rome is on again today…af